hello everyone i havent been drawing anything In a while or doing anything productive whatsoever for the past few weeks, Ive been really mentally unwell about some stuff I've been going through and have been trying to cope with basically everything that's been thrown my way that be the online stuff or the irl stuff and everything kinda caught up to me for a good while. i chose to take a year off from education so I could improve on my work and my skills, build up a larger audience and all that but the way things are going now the progress with that has been very slow, because I have a lot of free time in my hand and I'm not the best at time management or planning, and these past few months I've been wasting my time doing nothin productive and be fuckin lazy all the time, struggling with addictions(those who know) n that sort of stuff and I decided that things couldn't go on like this anymore and that I had to seek help from family and doctors. a few weeks later I got diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety disorder(lmao) and I have been put on these anti depressant meds that made me really tired and sleepy, it was a real big roadblock n I would most of the days do nothing rot in my bed and watch one piece and give in to whatever cravings I have, and I still am guilty of doing these things but I keep on trying even if its in very small steps, and I've also been having a mental fight in my head over being diagnosed with adhd and that I went on with my life having to go through everyone else's judgments and blaming myself over something that I had no control of, the realization kinda fucked me up and I'm still struggling to just not blame myself for things that are out of my control, SO I guess what I'm really tryna say is that everything I do related to related to art or youtube have been halted because of this. I'm waiting on my next appointment to get my adhd meds and I hope after that I can finally get back on my feet and provide for yall and just be a better person
please be patient with me
